Karaoké Auntie Diaries Kendrick Lamar

Heart plays in ways the mind can't figure out

Heart plays in ways the mind can't

Heart plays in ways the mind can't figure out

This is how we conceptualize human beings

My auntie is a man now

I think I'm old enough to understand now

Drinkin' Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards

Motorola pager off like Yes Jackie

Blue Air Max's

Gold chains and curl kits

Ninety-three Nissan wax job

The earliest

Big social, big personality

Vocal

Played underground verbatim and stayed local

My auntie is a man now

I watch him and his girl hold their hands down

Tip of the avenues under street lights made his

Thinkin' I want me a bad bitch when I get big

They hug on the corner like California king

Cold hand all up her skirt

Cars whistlin' down the road

See my auntie is a man now

Slight bravado

Scratchin' the likes from lotto

Hopin' that she pull up tomorrow so I can hang out in the front seat

Six by nines

Keepin' the music up under me

My auntie is a man now

Asked my momma why my uncles don't like him that much

And at the parties why they always wanna fight him that much

She said Ain't no tellin'

Niggas always been jealous because he had more women

More money and more attention made more envy

Callin' him anything but broke was less offendin'

My auntie is a man now

I think I'm old enough to understand now

Drinkin' Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards

Back when it was comedic relief to say faggot

Faggot, faggot, faggot

We ain't know no better

Elementary kids with no filter

However

My auntie became a man and I took pride in it

She wasn't gay, she ate pussy and that was the difference

That's what I told my friends in second grade

She pickin' me up from school

They stare at her in the face

They couldn't comprehend what I grew accustomed

We pull off bumpin' quick like it was nothin'

My auntie is a man now

What a relationship

I grew up fast

I needed no one to babysit

He gave me some cash then gave me some gang

Cherry freshener on the dash

I never complained

She even cut my hair at the pad

Was lovin' my fade

The first person I seen write a rap

That's when my life had changed

House full of demo

Smoke stuck on the window

Cameras on the microphone

All women and men though

My auntie was a man now

We cool with it

The history had trickled down and made us ig'nant

My favorite cousin said he's returnin' the favor and followin' my auntie with the same behavior

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now

He's more confident to live his plan now

But the family in disbelief this time

Convincin' themselves

He ain't livin' discreet, he's fine

They said they never seen it in him but I seen it

The Barbie dolls played off reflection of Venus

He built a wall so tall you couldn't climb over

He didn't laugh as hard when the kids start jokin'

Faggot, faggot, faggot

We ain't know no better

Middle school kids with no filter

However

I had to be very mindful of my good cousin

I knew exactly who he was but I still loved him

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now

I mean he's really Mary-Ann

Even took things further

Changed his gender before

Bruce Jenner was certain

Livin' his truth even if it meant see a surgeon

We didn't talk for a while

He seemed more distant

Wasn't comfortable around me

Everything was offensive

But I recall we both had a sick sense of humor

Made raw but time changes all

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now

Remember church

Easter Sunday

I sat in the pew

You had stronger faith

More spiritual than dudes who were livin' life straight

Which I found ironic 'cos the pastor didn't see him the same

He said my cousin was goin' through some things

He promised the world we livin in was an act on abomination

And Demetrius was to blame

I knew you was conflicted by the feelings of preacher man

Wonderin' if God still call you a decent man

Still you found the courage to be subservient just to anoint

Until he singled you out to prove his point, sayin'

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now

Church

His auntie is a man now

It hurt

You the most 'cos your belief was close to his words

Forcin' me to stand now

I said Mister Preacher man should we love thy neighbor

The laws of the land or the heart what's greater

I recognize the study she was taught since birth but that don't justify the feelings that my cousin preserved

The building was thinkin' out loud

Bad angel

That's when you looked at me and smiled, said Thank you

The day I chose humanity over religion

The family got closer

It was all forgiven

I said them F-bombs

I ain't know any better

Mistakenly I didn't think that you'd know any different

See I was taught words was nothin' more than a sound

If ever they was pronounced without any intentions

The very second you challenged the shit I was kickin'

Reminded me about a show

I did out the city

That time I brung a fan on stage to rap

But disapproved the word that she couldn't say with me

You said Kendrick ain't no room for contradiction

To truly understand love switch position

Faggot, faggot, faggot

We can say it together but only if you let a white girl say Nigga