Karaoké Happy NF

Dear God please

Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years

Since I've reached out and said hello

I bet You're wonderin' why I keep

Obsessin' on and stressin' all the little things when I should be

Livin' life and soaking up the memories

I know I've been selfish, I have no excuse to give You it's true

Hangin' by a thread's how I live

I don't know why but

I feel more comfortable

Livin' in my agony

Watchin' my self-esteem go up in flames

Actin' like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya to pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help but I just can't imagine who I'd be if

I was happy

Yeah been this way so long it feels like somethin's off when I'm not depressed

I got some issues that I won't address

I got some baggage I ain't opened yet

I got some demons I should put to rest

I got some traumas that I can't forget

I got some phone calls I been avoidin'

Some family members

I don't really connect with

Some things I said

I wish I woulda not let slip

Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips

Some bridges burned

I'm not ready to rebuild yet

Some insecurities

I haven't dealt with, yes

I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul and the last to admit

I need a hand to hold

Losin' hope, headed down a dangerous road

Strange I know but I feel most at home when I'm

Livin' in my agony

Watchin' my self-esteem go up in flames

Actin' like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya to pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help but I just can't imagine who I'd be if

I was happy

Don't know what's around the bend

Don't know what my future is but I can't keep on livin' in

Livin' in my agony

Watchin' my self-esteem go up in flames

Actin' like I don't

Care what anyone else thinks when I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I

Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya to pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

The truth is I need help but I just can't imagine who I'd be if

I was happy

If I was happy

If I was happy