Karaoké Growing Sideways Noah Kahan

So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out

On some sad-eyed middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch

And we argued about Jesus

Finally found some middle ground

Said I'm cured

And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts

Keep the bad shit in my liver and the rest around my heart

I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them but it's a start

But I ignore things and I move sideways 'till I forget what I felt in the first place

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cos everyone's growing and everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive

So I forgot my medication

Fell into a manic high

Spent my savings at a Lulu

Now I'm suffering in style

Why is pain so damn impatient

Ain't like it's got a place to be

Keeps rushing me

But I ignore things and I move sideways 'till I forget what I felt in the first place

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cos everyone's growing and everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

And if all my life was wasted

I don't mind

I'll watch it go

Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all

Oh if all my time was wasted

I don't mind

I'll watch it go

Yeah it's better to die numb than feel it all

But I ignore things and I move sideways 'till I forget what I felt in the first place

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cos everyone's growing and everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive