Karaoké Disco Ball Why Am I So Single? (Jo Foster)

Why are you so scared to show me

To show anyone

Who you are when you're not puttin' on a fuckin' show

Oh Nancy darlin' baby

Ain't it obvious

I mean you already said it kid

It's because I'm like a disco ball

Yeah I'm a disco ball

I spin and give you all a party feelin'

I'm sparkly and I'm fun and crucially I'm hung from the ceilin'

You're far away from me

If you weren't well it would be such a pity

'Cos when people get too close oof baby heaven knows well it ain't pretty

So I never let 'em get too close

Never let 'em stay too long

They'll see me in the light

Gotta keep it all goin'

Gotta keep 'em from knowin' what's inside

So I spin and I spin and I spin

Dazzlin' like I'm a disco ball

And I stay far away up above and you love it

I'm a disco ball

If I slow, let you close you would notice I'm nothin' like you thought I was at all

But no one notices 'cos everybody's dancin' 'round the disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin like I'm a disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin like I'm a disco ball

Yeah I learned long ago if I don't put on a show they'll keep their distance

People can you know

Disappointment, fag

Homo

Just for instance

When I have let people in there's tended to have been a bit of blowback

Like We can fuck but I'm not gay

I wish you'd dress a different way

Oh such a throwback

But if I keep it all goin'

If I keep it all glowin'

It's great for you and I

'Cos I'm never gonna show you-ou

It really isn't all inside

So I spin and I spin and I spin

Dazzlin' like I'm a disco ball

So the me that you see isn't real

No big deal, you love a disco ball

'Cos when I spin, spin, spin in the club no one ever sees the cracks at all

No one notices 'cos everybody's dancin' 'round the disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin like I'm a disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin like I'm a disco ball

Hey is this thing on

How's it goin' folks

Thank you so much for comin' out

Ooh if I had a penny for every time I heard that when I was fourteen

I'd have no pennies uh um uh

So I've got this friend

Let's call her Nancy 'cos that's her name

And she's all

Why you gotta put on a show all the time

Maybe you should be more vulnerable

Well kid it ain't gonna happen

'Cos when you grow up in

What's it called

Oh the world in which we live

You know

Where you call each other Gay in the playground

You don't even know what it means

You just know it's the worst possible insult

And every time you pop on the telly there's a comedy

With someone throwin' up 'cos they didn't realize the woman they were kissin' is trans

Well

When you grow up in that world you're gonna kind of have it instilled in you

That queerness is about as embarrassin', disgustin', unnatural immoral and wrong as pineapple on pizza ah hay

And then if one day

Uh oh

You slowly start to suspect that that is what you are

Unchangeably at your core

Wow

You're gonna learn to apply all those pesky little words

Anyone

You're gonna learn to apply them all to yourself baby

And that is all before you give anyone else the chance

But it's all good

It's all groovy

'Cos you can just turn yourself into a little disco ball baby

For sure

No one wants to see the broken ugly pieces of a disco ball up close

But they don't mind them so much when they're makin' the room sparkle

So who cares

Why those guys would not be seen with me

Why no one wants the authentic me

Why those strangers threw that shit at me

Why their words hurt but deep down I don't disagree

Why everyone I've loved's ashamed of me

Why my parents wouldn't look at me

Why it's only dark inside of me when I can disco ball it all away

So I spin and I twirl

To the world all I am is a disco ball

So I'm fractured and cracked

That's exactly what attracts you to a disco ball

I know it's fake and the toll that it takes kinda makes me think it's not sustainable

It's alright 'cos at least for the night they'll keep dancin' 'round the disco ball

So come on, here I am

Come on

Who's gonna use me like a disco ball

You can't love me for me

That's okay you can love me like a disco ball

And though I'm hangin' on by a thread and any minute there's a risk

I'll fall

Got no choice 'cos I know

I'm so much better off if I'm a disco ball

Can someone prove me wrong

How 'bout you sir

You wouldn't choose a disco ball

Who'd prefer all of this ugliness to the party of a disco ball

Not me that's for sure

You think you're not a fan

I'm really not a fan at all

So come on

Yes everybody dance around the disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin like I'm a disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin like a stupid fuckin' disco ball

Watch me spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin, spin

Spin, spin, spin like a disco ball